Jul. 23, 2014
Sucks when you wanna sleep, but can’t. So here’s a quick post before I head to bed or try to.
Being myself is okay.
Don’t be afraid to be yourself.
Don’t hide yourself.
Don’t dismiss yourself.
Everything you are is what you need to be (unless it’s harmful to someone else).
Constant reminder is okay.
Remember to be gentle on yourself.
Remember to love yourself.
Everything takes time.
Little effort is better than no effort.
Little progress is better than no progress.
Listen to your body.
If you need rest, take a break.
I am valid.
My feelings are valid.
My thoughts are valid.
Remember to breathe.
Design a workflow that suits me.
I don’t have to follow how everyone gets work done.
There are more than one way to finish things.
Go at my own pace.
Stay away from negativity.
Surround myself with beautiful souls.
Mac & Roy
May 02, 2010
Artwork by chaptervixiv.
These two are my original characters.
Not many know this about me.
I used to want to be an illustrator / manga artist, but photography came into my life.
I lost my passion for drawing because I felt as though I wouldn’t be able to make a living with it.
I’m still working thru it, but drawing kind of makes me sad cuhs it reminds me of a dream I gave up.
Pre-Seattle Based: Hipstar
Apr. 16, 2012
Unsure of who took the photo.
Location: Empire Polo Grounds, Indio, California
Was tryna sleep but fell into the FB hole and found myself before my awake days.
Look at my pre-queer days, when I still identified as gay/lesbian.
Basic Viviann, looking basic lolololol.
This is me at Coachella Fest on a Saturday. Thanks to Grae, I got a free one day pass and I was all close and intimate with drunk, sweaty folks. I don’t remember who was even playing at the time..
Jul. 22, 2014
Distancing myself from negativity has been one of my best tools of survival and ways I use to love myself.
I wasn’t ever taught that it was okay to kick negative people out of my life, that I didn’t have to put up with it, so being able to do so now has helped me survive.
It’s a process and it doesn’t “fix” me overnight, but it’s a great strategy to help love myself. It’s rewarding to know those who have hurt me no longer have that power over me.
I am healing and it feels good.
— Alex Ngo, "To My Comrades Still Navigating Higher Education" (via vntp)
I think it’s more than a “Tumblr movement.” I think it’s an eye opening shift in racial dynamics and, if anything, needs to go further.
My only problem with it is that white Tumblr users use it as a means of being even more racist. Look beyond what’s being said. White people perpetuation of oppression and blatant racism is ingrained in our culture. It’s all there to see. We just choose not to see it because it helps us sleep at night in order to wake up early in the morning to go to a job where we make more than the average person of colour for NO FUCKING REASON.
This is why white people are hated. Because we’ve shit on everything and everyone to get where we are and now we want to blame our ancestors while still benefiting off it.
And I’m not even a person of colour. I don’t know what it’s like to live with this constant, daily slap in the face. I don’t know what it’s like to have my culture stolen so that I can be laughed at and trodden on.
What I don’t get is why white people don’t see what’s going on. Why are we so offended by people of colour speaking out? Because we’re afraid of the truth, I imagine.
"But I’m white and I don’t do any of that shit." Yes, but you shouldn’t want a cookie for not being a racist. That should come naturally. And if you detest people of colour pointing out how white people constantly savage other cultures then…well…you are being racist. You’re being racist if you don’t want to hear it. When you choose to ignore it…because it’s easier.
Because “white people” doesn’t mean you. I mean, it does if it does, but it means a lot more than that. It means the history of white bullshit people of colour have had to put up with and it means the present…the now…of white bullshit people of colour have to put up with.
It’s the fact that a film called “Dear White People” has to be made for us to pay attention. It’s the fact that Iggy Azalea gets a BET Award over a black rapper. It’s nobody really giving a fuck when Bill Clinton gets his dick sucked and everyone giving a fuck when we can’t see Barack Obama’s birth certificate. It’s today’s politics, today’s media, today’s everything.
It’s something we, as white people, need to wake up to. Do you see the anger on Tumblr? Do you see just how much white people are hated? IT’S REAL. How about we do something about it? How about we own up to what’s going on around us and change the playing field?
As a white person, it’s not hard to say, “Yes, I see why you hate white people.” It’s not hard to understand why. And yet we’re desperate to protect ourselves. From what? What are we arguing against? Being shows our true colours? Being shown how we adamantly claim we’re not racist and yet remain very comfortable in the racist bed we’ve made for ourselves? “Oh I hate slavery but I’m perfectly content with all the benefits it’s brought me.” We’re a living hypocrisy.
So yeah…I’m for it. Being offended by it would be ridiculous. If Tumblr is the only place people of colour have to vocalize the truth, then something is still very, very fucked up with the world.
Worth the read.
My Sun Sign
How I deal with the world.
My Moon Sign
How I deal with emotions.
My Rising Sign
How the world sees me and what roll I play.
How I think.
How I deal with other people.
How I deal with conflict.
Where I find luck.
Where I find work.
How I seek individuality.
My imagination and dreams.
How I transform myself.
What needs to be developed.
For those like myself who have developed a deeper fascination with astrology…
Ahhhhh, if you’re into it:
Sun sign: Gemini
Moon sign: Sagittarius
Rising sign: Scopio
Tell me yours if you want