Sept. 18, 2014
Photo by chaptervixiv.
Update / Reflection
Sept. 19, 2014
What is sleep?
I finally found time to update my website.
I got rid of most of my old work and added my recent work, more specifically actions & rallies I’ve attended.
I need to be real with myself, I no longer photograph with the same aesthetics as I did before. Most of my work is centered on actions, rallies, and vigils. I never expected I would go down this route with my photography, but I feel a lot more whole knowing the work I do isn’t empty. I want my photographs to go beyond pretty. I want it to capture what is happening in the world, the movement, the struggles, and the communities around me. I guess I’m trying to distance myself from that picture perfect image, whatever I was doing before I moved here. I am discontinuing that.
I realize that the reason I’m so depressed about my work is that my art isn’t coming from the heart. For the past several years, it was merely to achieve a certain aesthetic that wasn’t a part of me. I felt detached to my photographs and that’s not something I want.
I know enough to distinguish that I don’t want to photograph the same way I used to anymore. I want to work on my skills and composition. I want to be able to convey deep emotions, experiences, and stories of those around me. I want to share my sorrows and happiness, but not the kind that is airbrushed. I want to dive deeper than what is expected of a pretty photograph.
It’s going to be hard letting go of the old me, but it is needed of me to grow as an artist. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s a journey I’m willing to work towards. I just have to let go of everything I know that concerns how my photographs should look like to others. I need to remember that I do not have to edit for others anymore. I do not have to succumb to that.
Keep shooting, keep making mistakes, keep practicing because I can’t be stagnant if I’m constantly moving. And every now and then a break is fine too, so long as I remember to get back up.
I’m going to be okay.
mikeislegend said: YOU GOT THIS! :D P.S. let’s get Petersons and take ridiculous photos when you visit back down here?
If I have access to a car I will visit SD!
If not and you’re able, come to the valley!